Ignore this if you want to..I'm not in the best state of mind right now
But
What is it that I did wrong?
Is there something so disgustingly wrong with me that I just didn't notice?
All this while I've been trying...trying SO hard for everything, constant contact, always being in touch, facebooking, e-mailing, even skyping EVERYTHING. I've been online ALL DAY for so many days and now I just feel like a delusional little pixie...AGAIN!
All that effort I was putting in..it made me look pathetic to everyone else, and feel pretty pathetic myself. It's like oh look at her! Look at her trying so hard and him not caring at all! Look at her, uploading all those pictures and writing him all those cutesy wall posts and trying SO FUCKING HARD and look at him living it up with his friends and totally forgetting about her existence! AWWW!
Wow, you know, it was really difficult for me to trust again.
But I trusted him.
Right now, everything hurts like a bitch. I can't even sleep.
I'm never letting any other guy hurt me like this ever again.
I am NEVER, EVER going to fall this hard again.
Me
- BeautyInTheBreakdown *
- Boston, Massachussetts, United States
- I'm not limited to the blank canvas I was born as. My life is an eclectic melange of vivid colour. I float in a sea of multifarious musings, ranging from worlds of lime green skies and copper stars to winged objects and fairy dust. I am the flirtatiousness of cherry chap-stick, the depths of the cerulean ocean and the violet skies of Monet. I am the brooding dark green of dense foliage, the crimson tint in a blushing girl’s cheeks; the purple of bruised limbs. The complexity of my thoughts keeps evolving, I grow and shrink alternately. I cannot be contained or restrained. The French language is my drug and acne is my worst enemy. I laugh a little too much and am a romantic in the extreme sense. I’m likely to steal the stars from the sky, but my aims remain grounded in reality. I can’t be pigeonholed into a single stereotype, because all labels apply to me at different points in time.
I love you, Sasha.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you had to go through this. But he's a real bitch.
And he doesn't deserve you.
:( don't say that..he was awesome, but I guess I just didn't mean enough to him
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