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I'm not limited to the blank canvas I was born as. My life is an eclectic melange of vivid colour. I float in a sea of multifarious musings, ranging from worlds of lime green skies and copper stars to winged objects and fairy dust. I am the flirtatiousness of cherry chap-stick, the depths of the cerulean ocean and the violet skies of Monet. I am the brooding dark green of dense foliage, the crimson tint in a blushing girl’s cheeks; the purple of bruised limbs. The complexity of my thoughts keeps evolving, I grow and shrink alternately. I cannot be contained or restrained. The French language is my drug and acne is my worst enemy. I laugh a little too much and am a romantic in the extreme sense. I’m likely to steal the stars from the sky, but my aims remain grounded in reality. I can’t be pigeonholed into a single stereotype, because all labels apply to me at different points in time.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Another Dream

Last night, I had a really, really weird dream again. I dreamed that all my closest friends, SM, AP, SI, CP, AS, VM and PG - ALL of them - were smiling. In some kind of Pacman-style maze which was filled with other inanimate smilies.
Smiley 
To see a smiley face in your dream, symbolizes approval and validation of your actions. The dream symbol is providing you with reassurance that you are on the right track.


Well, that's very reassuring. I just feel like I'm being unjustifiably petulant about this by not replying to the e-mail, and refusing to ever speak to him again. It's just that I'm so hurt and let down and nobody, not even I, expected this from him. If I don't even know who he is anymore, how am I supposed to ever speak to him again? There's an AS-India version and an AS-America version. They're two very different people, it would seem... 

Smile 


To dream that you or others are smiling, means that you are pleased with your achievements and approve of the decisions you have made. You will be rewarded for the good things you have done for others. Alternatively, a smile indicates that you are in search of something or someone that will make you happy.


I don't completely agree with this. I haven't achieved anything this summer. At all. And I personally don't approve of my decision to never speak to AS again, because I miss him so much, but it's something that I think I have to do if I have any self respect and/or principles. Rewarded for the good things I've done? Sure. As if that ever happens. The only good things I've done lately are help some 11th grader with his EE and rework Aashna's world lit. I don't really think I deserve any rewards for basic things like that anyway. 

One thing is for certain, though: I'm definitely looking for someone to make me smile.

Maze 

To dream that you are in a maze, denotes that you need to deal with a waking task on a more direct level. Alternatively, the maze symbolizes life's twists and turns. It represents indecision, confusion, missteps, feeling lost or being misled

How on earth am I supposed to deal with this?

Indecision - check. I can't decide whether or not I should reply and pretend I'm okay or whatever.

Confusion - Hell yeah I'm confused. I didn't even do anything to deserve this.

Missteps - God knows what that's supposed to mean, though I'm pretty sure it applies.

Feeling lost - of course I feel lost. :/

Being misled - I think this one is the clear winner. I was misled into thinking this meant something, that it was real enough to mean something even from far away. 

Oh well.
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